You would think you could get used to anything...

You would think you could get used to anything, feeling like an animal in a zoo, like everyone wants to believe the worst about you and revel in it, like there's no point in trying to fight it, it's just too big, too many people, who for their own reasons, like the status quo.  Most days I just think 'fuck them' I know who I am, I am a good person, their lies do not affect me, their reach is so far that it's pointless to even try and do something about it, and what could I do anyway?  I tried to send a letter to the AFP but they intercepted it.  These people would rather befriend psychopaths and believe stalkers than own up to the truth, it is not me, but their own self deficiencies that drive them.   Projecting all their anger, hatred, disappointments and jealousies onto me, so I have become the embodiment of evil in their eyes.  Blinded by their hatred, they see only what they want to see, they do not see the nasty rumours, the character assassination, the spying, the threats, the set-ups as evil in themselves. They think it is justified because 'I' , in their minds, deserve it.   Really? For as many years as it has gone on? To the point that my husband thinks I am mentally ill?  My children?  That strangers think I (and here I will list some of the things that have been circulated about me, so pick any of the following)
1.  Used to be a prostitute
2.  Have some sort of disease
3.  Am a shoplifter
4.  Do or sell drugs
5.  God knows what else, think of anything nasty and it probably should be on this list.
To the point that it has affected my employment, resulting in me losing a job I loved?  This is not enough punishment for any real or imagined wrongs I supposedly did?  I also suspect meddling in my children's lives.  Even the mafia supposedly don't target children.

The neighbours have apparently been going to the police, stating that I  have threatened the woman.  They site a time when I photographed a vehicle outside their house, which they claimed belonged to their son.  It did not belong to their son at the time, it belonged to the man who was invloved in harrassing me at work as well as home.  The son usually drove a red car and still does.  Then they site an incident at a shopping centre, where I supposedly keyed the woman's car.  I hope they have security footage of that incident, because it would show the woman following me in her car into the car park, not the other way around, in fact she parked directly behind me, it would also show me going up to her and shouting for her to "leave me alone and to tell her husband and his friends to leave me alone".  Then the third and final accusation, when i went up to her , after the debacle set up on the day I thought they were trying to kill me, they construed that as a threat.  In what universe does someone saying "why are you trying to kill me?" a threat?  If anything it shows fear on my part.
I had not been taking some of my medication prior to that incident, consequently I had not been sleeping well, this resulted in my falling for their 'using rays to make me sick' routine.  Under normal circumstances I would have realised this was just another one of their games, playing on my paranoia.  It is quite funny really, I have to laugh, I mean they have helped with all of the above in the previous paragraph and have the audacity to accuse me of harrassment.

The 'project' has been so successful that in spite of the number of people who know about this, no one will come out and tell me to my face what's been going on.  That's what having a preconceived idea of someone will do. This phenomena has a name, 'gang stalking', whereby people are recruited, it is treated almost like a game, as one school kid put it, "it's like watching a reality soap". People are made to feel like they are part of something big, secret, it's fun to be part of something especially if the person being targeted is as bad as they say she is.  And how would they know any different?

One thing I haven't openly been accused of is being psychic or telepathic.  Although according to one source, I have the ability to cause disease, accidents and general chaos just using my mind.  Wow! I have actually been blamed for one woman's cancer, and another's accident.  If this were true how come they are not all dead?  How come I am not a millionaire? Why doesn't the government recruit me to get rid of bad guys using my mind?  Just who is the crazy one here?

The purpose of this blog is to just get it out.  True or not you decide.  But everytime you do something to hurt another person, try to cause psychological, physical or character damage, you are hurting yourself more than you are hurting me.