So it is the first of December 2016 and the crazies are still at it. This morning I heard psycho bitch mumble something, then psycho bastard said "We'll get her this time." Psycho bitch "But what if it goes wrong again?" Psycho bastard "Don't worry, it won't".
I guess we can deduce from this that it won't be the first time they've tried to "get me" and obviously they think their next try will be successful. So just in case it is, should I be attacked, have a mysterious accident or disappear or just end up murdered, know it wasn't random. Surely there are still cops out there who are not corrupt, members of the media who still want to tell the truth, councillors who are not just in it for themselves, come on I've got to believe that's not being naieve. It makes you wonder though who would have such reach. I mean it's not just a couple of crazies, although they do seem to relish their task, what are we dealing with here? Let's see, who would have the means and the balls to pay people off, perhaps intimidate them, influence the law, the media,politicians, hell just about anyone they damn well please? Come on it's not too hard, who?
It is insane the amount of time and effort that has been put into little old moi. I have repeatedly said if they leave me alone, I will leave them alone. (Though what I could do baffles me). So I might have guessed some stuff and worked out other stuff for myself, some people do use their brains occassionally, and let's face it they haven't exactly been discreet. In fact one wonders if I wasn't meant to notice all the following, meant to hear the remarks, in order to worry me. You did that alright, I got worried, which is why I took note of stuff, which is why I still do. I might not be able to stop you ruining my reputation, stopping me from gainful employment, maybe even 'terminating' me, but I can damn well record my thoughts and hopefully leave enough evidence to help any honest law enforcement find you.
Finally, for today anyway, consider this, psycho's, I am trying to live my life, just get on with things, while you are spending yours, watching me live mine. How many years have you wasted watching me live my life? Your life is watching me live mine. Once again who is the nutcase?
One more thing, to the lady who once said I was not alone, if that's the case where are you? Are you afraid of them?
Wednesday, 30 November 2016
Thursday, 24 November 2016
You would think you could get used to anything...
You would think you could get used to anything, feeling like an animal in a zoo, like everyone wants to believe the worst about you and revel in it, like there's no point in trying to fight it, it's just too big, too many people, who for their own reasons, like the status quo. Most days I just think 'fuck them' I know who I am, I am a good person, their lies do not affect me, their reach is so far that it's pointless to even try and do something about it, and what could I do anyway? I tried to send a letter to the AFP but they intercepted it. These people would rather befriend psychopaths and believe stalkers than own up to the truth, it is not me, but their own self deficiencies that drive them. Projecting all their anger, hatred, disappointments and jealousies onto me, so I have become the embodiment of evil in their eyes. Blinded by their hatred, they see only what they want to see, they do not see the nasty rumours, the character assassination, the spying, the threats, the set-ups as evil in themselves. They think it is justified because 'I' , in their minds, deserve it. Really? For as many years as it has gone on? To the point that my husband thinks I am mentally ill? My children? That strangers think I (and here I will list some of the things that have been circulated about me, so pick any of the following)
1. Used to be a prostitute
2. Have some sort of disease
3. Am a shoplifter
4. Do or sell drugs
5. God knows what else, think of anything nasty and it probably should be on this list.
To the point that it has affected my employment, resulting in me losing a job I loved? This is not enough punishment for any real or imagined wrongs I supposedly did? I also suspect meddling in my children's lives. Even the mafia supposedly don't target children.
The neighbours have apparently been going to the police, stating that I have threatened the woman. They site a time when I photographed a vehicle outside their house, which they claimed belonged to their son. It did not belong to their son at the time, it belonged to the man who was invloved in harrassing me at work as well as home. The son usually drove a red car and still does. Then they site an incident at a shopping centre, where I supposedly keyed the woman's car. I hope they have security footage of that incident, because it would show the woman following me in her car into the car park, not the other way around, in fact she parked directly behind me, it would also show me going up to her and shouting for her to "leave me alone and to tell her husband and his friends to leave me alone". Then the third and final accusation, when i went up to her , after the debacle set up on the day I thought they were trying to kill me, they construed that as a threat. In what universe does someone saying "why are you trying to kill me?" a threat? If anything it shows fear on my part.
I had not been taking some of my medication prior to that incident, consequently I had not been sleeping well, this resulted in my falling for their 'using rays to make me sick' routine. Under normal circumstances I would have realised this was just another one of their games, playing on my paranoia. It is quite funny really, I have to laugh, I mean they have helped with all of the above in the previous paragraph and have the audacity to accuse me of harrassment.
The 'project' has been so successful that in spite of the number of people who know about this, no one will come out and tell me to my face what's been going on. That's what having a preconceived idea of someone will do. This phenomena has a name, 'gang stalking', whereby people are recruited, it is treated almost like a game, as one school kid put it, "it's like watching a reality soap". People are made to feel like they are part of something big, secret, it's fun to be part of something especially if the person being targeted is as bad as they say she is. And how would they know any different?
One thing I haven't openly been accused of is being psychic or telepathic. Although according to one source, I have the ability to cause disease, accidents and general chaos just using my mind. Wow! I have actually been blamed for one woman's cancer, and another's accident. If this were true how come they are not all dead? How come I am not a millionaire? Why doesn't the government recruit me to get rid of bad guys using my mind? Just who is the crazy one here?
The purpose of this blog is to just get it out. True or not you decide. But everytime you do something to hurt another person, try to cause psychological, physical or character damage, you are hurting yourself more than you are hurting me.
1. Used to be a prostitute
2. Have some sort of disease
3. Am a shoplifter
4. Do or sell drugs
5. God knows what else, think of anything nasty and it probably should be on this list.
To the point that it has affected my employment, resulting in me losing a job I loved? This is not enough punishment for any real or imagined wrongs I supposedly did? I also suspect meddling in my children's lives. Even the mafia supposedly don't target children.
The neighbours have apparently been going to the police, stating that I have threatened the woman. They site a time when I photographed a vehicle outside their house, which they claimed belonged to their son. It did not belong to their son at the time, it belonged to the man who was invloved in harrassing me at work as well as home. The son usually drove a red car and still does. Then they site an incident at a shopping centre, where I supposedly keyed the woman's car. I hope they have security footage of that incident, because it would show the woman following me in her car into the car park, not the other way around, in fact she parked directly behind me, it would also show me going up to her and shouting for her to "leave me alone and to tell her husband and his friends to leave me alone". Then the third and final accusation, when i went up to her , after the debacle set up on the day I thought they were trying to kill me, they construed that as a threat. In what universe does someone saying "why are you trying to kill me?" a threat? If anything it shows fear on my part.
I had not been taking some of my medication prior to that incident, consequently I had not been sleeping well, this resulted in my falling for their 'using rays to make me sick' routine. Under normal circumstances I would have realised this was just another one of their games, playing on my paranoia. It is quite funny really, I have to laugh, I mean they have helped with all of the above in the previous paragraph and have the audacity to accuse me of harrassment.
The 'project' has been so successful that in spite of the number of people who know about this, no one will come out and tell me to my face what's been going on. That's what having a preconceived idea of someone will do. This phenomena has a name, 'gang stalking', whereby people are recruited, it is treated almost like a game, as one school kid put it, "it's like watching a reality soap". People are made to feel like they are part of something big, secret, it's fun to be part of something especially if the person being targeted is as bad as they say she is. And how would they know any different?
One thing I haven't openly been accused of is being psychic or telepathic. Although according to one source, I have the ability to cause disease, accidents and general chaos just using my mind. Wow! I have actually been blamed for one woman's cancer, and another's accident. If this were true how come they are not all dead? How come I am not a millionaire? Why doesn't the government recruit me to get rid of bad guys using my mind? Just who is the crazy one here?
The purpose of this blog is to just get it out. True or not you decide. But everytime you do something to hurt another person, try to cause psychological, physical or character damage, you are hurting yourself more than you are hurting me.
Wednesday, 2 November 2016
Oh the irony of it all. According to my daughter, if my, shall we say, observers, use the slip up of mine (i.e. "why are you trying to kill me?") then she says the whole family will believe me about being 'observed' and harrassed by these people, however if they don't use it - on the one hand I am spared public embarrassment - but on the other they can continue what they're doing. It must be a tough choice for them, the urge to use it must be tremendous. However the fun of watching me flounder around and having my family think I'm just a little bit nuts is probably too good to stop.If they use it, questions would be asked about why they just happened to be recording me at that time of morning. i.e. How did they know I would even go up to them, and even if they thought I might, why did they record it? Of course they will say that I harrass them, and they will pull up clips of times when I have reacted to their baiting, times when I have been tired and just responded, when I should have kept ignoring them as usual. When I would go outside and get called 'an old cow' I would usually just keep quiet, but one time I was fed up with that woman, who I had never called anything, saying such nasty things, so I said "I may be an old cow, but at least I wear underwear, you slut".
She said to her husband, "did you hear that?" as if what she had said was ok, but my reaction was not. He said, (probably knowing the underwear thing is true), don't carry it on". Wise move. So when you get that sort of thing on tape, and edit out the before bit, and just show the reaction, you get someone who looks nasty, unprovoked.
So my hearing the neighbours and co. is considered my being paranoid schizophrenic. I may or may not be. I think it's a wonder that I am not totally insane with what they've done over the years. Unfortunately my husband thinks I am and so do the rest of my family. You'd think this would indicate that I was, however the 'voices' I hear are not in my head, they are in the neighbours carport or backyard. I don't hear any voices when I'm out and about, I hear THEIR voices when I am home alone.
My husband is angry at me for stopping therapy on my own accord, but it's really difficult to let someone pass judgement on me - paranoid schizophrenic - knowing that's what I sound like - but that it's not true. He says "It's all too perfect." and I agree. As long as I'm the only one they target, and as long as they do it when I'm alone, it's perfect. So I have to wear that label. I've had to pretend that's what I am so that the peace is kept, because no matter how many times in the past (I gave up a while ago) that I told him they said this or that when i was hanging out washing or at the letterbox, he didn't believe me. He says that I have always been paranoid. And that is also true, but in my defence, it has never been of everyone, just certain people, and I am often proven right in the long run about my suspicions of that particular individual. And having some paranoia is different to hearing 'voices' and suspecting everyone of a consipracy. So I'll keep their comments to myself, I'll go to therapy - again. They must love the fact that my husband thinks their games are all in my head.
She said to her husband, "did you hear that?" as if what she had said was ok, but my reaction was not. He said, (probably knowing the underwear thing is true), don't carry it on". Wise move. So when you get that sort of thing on tape, and edit out the before bit, and just show the reaction, you get someone who looks nasty, unprovoked.
So my hearing the neighbours and co. is considered my being paranoid schizophrenic. I may or may not be. I think it's a wonder that I am not totally insane with what they've done over the years. Unfortunately my husband thinks I am and so do the rest of my family. You'd think this would indicate that I was, however the 'voices' I hear are not in my head, they are in the neighbours carport or backyard. I don't hear any voices when I'm out and about, I hear THEIR voices when I am home alone.
My husband is angry at me for stopping therapy on my own accord, but it's really difficult to let someone pass judgement on me - paranoid schizophrenic - knowing that's what I sound like - but that it's not true. He says "It's all too perfect." and I agree. As long as I'm the only one they target, and as long as they do it when I'm alone, it's perfect. So I have to wear that label. I've had to pretend that's what I am so that the peace is kept, because no matter how many times in the past (I gave up a while ago) that I told him they said this or that when i was hanging out washing or at the letterbox, he didn't believe me. He says that I have always been paranoid. And that is also true, but in my defence, it has never been of everyone, just certain people, and I am often proven right in the long run about my suspicions of that particular individual. And having some paranoia is different to hearing 'voices' and suspecting everyone of a consipracy. So I'll keep their comments to myself, I'll go to therapy - again. They must love the fact that my husband thinks their games are all in my head.
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