23.12.16 Yesterday I heard a very cultured older male voice say "she's not that hairy you know." a younger male said "Howdya know?" and the older male said "I've seen her in the shower", then he said "she can hear us you know." younger male "can she?" older "Oh my word yes." sounded like a radio personality but I suppose several people could sound like that.......
11.01.17........I've just realised that the woman who called out from ..........'s place one day, after the girls had a falling out, "how're the girls going?" and then laughing raucously, is the same woman who,when we lived in ............Rd, would say "she's a dirty bitch" to (god knows who). At the time in my naievity, I took her literally, and would sweep and clean, but now I know she was referring to something quite different....... that would make , in her case anyway, her stalking on and off for approximately 25 years, as when we lived there, our oldest was only 5!!! WTF?
................one of them said that if they make me cry they get more money............they don't just put in the boot, they grind you into the floor and enjoy watching your pain, and make more money!!!!
It makes me wonder how many suicides they are responsible for, how many people diagnosed as schizophrenic or put away in institutions for 'hearing voices', which they actually did hear...........
it's even easier for them if they pick people who have had real issues in the past.............traumatic or difficult childhoods, previous counselling or depression, post partum depression, or any event that may have caused depression, their torment is dismissed as delusions or a return of mental illness........
Many people will do anything,ignore anything and turn a blind eye to anything, if the price is right, this evil little empire actually employs people, sometimes cash jobs to unemployed, sometimes more regular payments.........It's a full time job for some of them so of course they have a vested interest in it continuing...........the use of the word "it" to refer to the victim or insulting terms such as 'the slut' 'the bitch', whatever, dehumanises the victim so that they are not seen as a person with feelings but a 'thing', it makes it easier to justify what they do............one almost feels sorry for those few who retain a grain of empathy or have an incling that what they do is wrong, what can they do? They don't want to become victims themselves, they see how easily it is done....the one's that aren't psychopathic by nature, become psychopathic by nurture, by their environment and the people around them and one's that control them, they become psychopathic as a means of self preservation......... if the participants in the stalking exercise become too attached to the victim, through regular observation they may note that the victim is innocent/a nice person or whatever, undeserving of the continuing treatment being dished out, they are changed around, probably 'rostered' onto another victim for a while.......or encouraged to revert to the 'thing' mentality. Of course there are those who become involved just for the hell of it, because they don't like the victim for personal reasons......
31.1.17..........one bloke said to him "You've made alot of money out of her", and he said "Yeah, but it's my neck on the line"...... it made me angry to think those horrible people profited from my misery, so I said some nasty things, albeit true, but nasty , sad to say dropped to their level, contrary to popular belief I am human............said yesterday that he 'wants to smash my face in' and he and his son have said they "can't wait to kick my ass" and various other nice things. It never ceases to amaze me how it seems to be ok for them to dish out insults, slut, old cow, old whore, etc etc but when I retaliate, I am the nasty one, it is beyond reason, not to mention the above 'it'.............in fact reason doesn't even come into it. here's an example of their reasoning, I sweep up sticks and leaves and flowers off of very illegal trees on our boundary, and when I'm doing this, .............says "God she's good" ........says "what?" all disbelieving that she might actually be saying something nice, then she says "she's good at making us look bad" once again, WTF? am I supposed to just leave them till they're ankle deep? at some stage I have to brave the outdoors, where your insults are more easily heard and sweep the damn things up.........on what planet does me sweeping leaves end up being an attempt to make you look bad.....in fact if it does make you look bad do something about it......but it's too much fun watching me sweep up ...........bit of a quandry ay, either look bad or enjoy the sweeping show............when I fell over and hurt my arm and cut my knee, she said "I wish I'd seen that", when I went for a swim she said "I hope she drowns", when I was organising a bbq for ........birthdays she said "they're spoilt" , sure they are, really spoilt, a bloody bbq??? seriously????it's hardly champagne and oysters at the Ritz.............in other words, am I the nasty one? I think on a blow to blow basis, the scales would be tipped in all of your direction, i.e. all of you and , yeah that's right, ONE of me.............
Note: Last year a family made the news headlines because a mother, father and one daughter went 'nuts'. The daughter jumped into the back of a strangers car, crouched down in the back and said "Hide me", the father and mother also tried to 'get away', the father was convinced 'they' were going to kill him. I remember thinking they might be the victims of the same people, only they fell completely for their 'games', their 'scripts'..............
04.02.17...........walking dog, past a white car with two young blokes in it, as I walked past one said "she's not scared at all" the other said "No she's not scared at all".........should I be scared?........
10.02.17........on the train out of the city, two of the male stalkers, both caucasian, made obvious reference to moi, I ignored them, later heard them saying they didn't think I saw them.......duh.....one made a point of mentioning my home town in another country............stalker 1 showed stalker 2 a picture on his phone, stalker 1 "here it is. mumble...she's getting old but they still keep filming her for some reason...."
21.2.17........big black motorbike belongs to one of them............
12.03.17 Today I went around the house looking for and filling little holes. I first noticed the holes in our bedroom ceiling, they looked like tiny drill holes, man made, not insect. So I went around the house and found heaps of them, mainly in ceiling and some in walls. There were three right above where I sit in the lounge, some up in corners and several just above eye level. There were also some in our daughters room.........hopefully I've got them all, I suspect I've missed one or two in our ensuite.....can't find them so i shower in the dark, ...........across the way thinks it's funny.......they sit outside and wait for me to shower and then the comments and insults fly.........
14.03.17.........a white van belonging to a certain pool place at old lady's across road, "there's no point in trying to get her here, we'll get her in New South Wales"............black motorbike at rentals last night..........
18.03.17 Today I took photos of the holes I filled in and one just outside our front door, when I photographed the holes one of them said "bloody hell"......... they've been talking about having put something under our bed......don't know if it's a mind game or not.........
Note: it turned out to be a rat, we caught it in a trap, it was obviously meant to be a pet rat as it did not look like a feral or native, poor bloody rat..............
28.03.17 yesterday one of the blokes next door said that they had "told all of them that I was an old whore and they all believe it", another one said "you beauty" and sounded ecstatic.
Wednesday, 31 May 2017
Tuesday, 30 May 2017
08.03.16 excerpt from journal. ....I saw a large black 4wd outside their place with .......plates, the same plates were on a Ford sedan, black, and when I checked the plate on the internet they supposedly belonged to a carina hatchback.!
20.03.16 ...most recently when I went to the Library, I think it was last Friday, there was one of them sitting in the foyer on his phone, I stopped halfway up the stairs and listened a bit, he said something about "not hanging around because it looked suspicious". The same young man (recently shaved bald head wearing glasses) followed me to the supermarket. There was no doubt that he was looking for me because when he saw me he kind of almost stepped back obviously surprised that I'd spotted him.
06.04.16.......Had a thought, ..............a counsellor for .................employees, she was bullied by them into letting them monitor our last session, she was nearly in tears, they must have threatened her. There was a woman there that day, sitting in the waiting room, strangely she had her back turned to me and was facing a wall, hunched over, like she didn't want to be seen. I got up and got a magazine trying to get a look at her but gave up and sat down again. Then she got up and as she went out the door, which I was right next to, I got a good look at her, she saw me looking and bent down and gave me what can only be described as 'an evil' smile. Funnily I noticed that she had slightly crooked front teeth, like mine. She met up with (yet another) bald man in the hallway, he was older than the one in the library, tall, solid, could be anything between 30 to 40. Think he was masquerading as a bus driver where I worked. The woman was caucasian, long black hair, about my age or slightly younger, slim, about my height.,
Also yesterday, four of them in a blue 4wd wearing baseball caps and sunglasses, I almost laughed out loud they were so obvious. Alerted to my presence at the supermarket but one of the lookouts , they use young blokes, who phone when I arrive. (Ditto on the obvious).
18.04.16 ......next door, driver of black hatchback and driver of red hatchback, they commented on my wearing my sunhat all the time and 'black' driver said "so you can't see her face", red driver said "you wouldn't want to would you?" I'm sure they're both extremely good looking.
22.04.16.........last time he visited, they got their roof sealed and painted and new guttering.
02.05.16........ they all know that I have their regos and they know why - so that their identities can be found out by the police (hopefully the non corrupt ones). Don't know if that is going to be enough deterrent to stop them doing me physical harm, I can only hope.
03.05.16....As I was leaving to go shopping today I noticed a young man on the corner,seemed to be watching me (another lookout), when he saw me he entered something into his phone. As I drove past him he mouthed what looked like "your house is bugged", he mouthed it twice, I was pretty sure that's what he said, but I got up the road and did a uee, was going to ask him what he said. He was being picked up by an older man in a white hatchback. They sped off, I got a good look at the driver, dark skinned, glasses, chubby, anywhere from 50's onwards. The young bloke looked beseechingly at me through the passenger window, once again, what could I do? Hope he's alright.
09.05.16.......it,s been going on for years.....
16.05.16.......I said (to rental) "whatever it is you need to get over it, or you'll end up in prison" and a female voice said "you see, she knows".....
18.05.16......made me realise I cannot win against these people. I'm in a catch 22. if I tell anyone what's going on they'll either think I'm delusional or just not believe me. So because I can't tell anyone, they can and do carry on with impunity......
23.05.16..Yesterday there was a gathering.....On Friday i noticed they sometimes use a courier van to 'change shifts'. The van pulls up,usually afternoon, the guy, wearing obligatory baseball cap and sunglasses, comes out of .......and one goes in. The one coming out said "I've never watched someone so boring who does the same things on the same days. " WELL DONT WATCH ME THEN!
25.05.16........Haven't seen the courier van again. they probs know I spotted them.I heard one of the 'haters' on rental side say he was interested in my body because I seem to be able to just keep going even when I'm ill or injured. It sounded like he couldn't wait to do an autopsy - it freaked me out. I thought why don't you just ask me if you want to know anything about me? I do feel pain, I feel psychological torture as well, but I just carry on, what else can I do?
01.06.16....as I was taking .....to the train station, the tall thin blond woman with very short spikey hair, came from the opposite direction in (once again the obligatory) 4wd, she nearly ran off the road looking at me. She was with the tall grey haired man at Central station once when I had been into town to get my hair done and eyebrows tinted (never again), on the travellator down to the platform they were behind me, she said "I nearly didn't recognise her with eyebrows". I turned to them and said "who are you people?" they just smiled and turned their backs on me. i called them stalkers and walked off. What could I do? Security watched me after that, probably because I started crying and they thought I might jump in front of a train........
19.08.16.......They broke into our house today, they must have a key. I tried recording them on my phone but the radio is on and they are whispering, if only there was a way to isolate the whispering and enhance it, there would be my proof. Apparently technology not up to that yet......
09.16........silver 4wd arrived at ...... this morning, driver, caucasian, bald (what else?) chubby, dark rimmed glasses, in his 50's maybe older, was talking to someone on a radio (CB? cop?). He spoke to two different people, a woman who said something about ".....they can look after themselves this weekend". Then spoke to a man , driver said "I'm thinking of coming up this weekend" and "I've got some money for you'. Other guy said something about "..... two kids, one of them is quite pretty, one of them has got tatoos."
Don't know who to tell about this as I don't know who is in on it. These people have the use of an ambulance, it enables them to get anywhere fast without being stopped by the cops. It's the sort of thing spy organisations do...... (baldy, of course, driving, and young female, caucasian, long black hair, thin, mid to late 20,s?)
........it's on the tape. In fact if it could be enhanced you would hear that when they broke into my home they took my DNA, they messed with our TV you can hear one guy say "it's not only Samsungs", you would hear how some guy has known me since I was a teenager, how some "anonymous donor" is financing it all, you would hear some chick comment that this house "is bigger, no better than the one we had in ............."You would hear another woman say (presumably about our dog which we got from the RSPCA) "I was meant to socialise her, but I didn't do a very good job", you would hear the sound of a drill, you would hear laughter and an excalamation of "this is awesome" (hopefully about my artwork), you would hear something about 'money in a drawer, mumble mumble, drug money...." (I kept money in a locked drawer, it was money I earned driving buses, i withdrew it when I lost my job, it's for furniture).
02.10.16......today they sent some sort of foul smelling gas drifting over, I heard them say "she can smell it..." i closed the window and put on the fan....
07.10.16......male voice next door said "I will cut her head off alright", and female said to another older female, "I'm sorry it's the regos, i should have thought of that....." older female says it's ok. i gather they intercepted the letter I tried to post to the AFP.
20.10.16.....I was going to stop keeping record, but when they enter my home at night, when I am half asleep, can't wake up properly, and my dog doesn't bark, it means she knows them......
28.10.16........I'd been looking up how to find hidden cameras and forensic audio online when the silver 4wd, owner pulled up (to jog your memory, bald, older, glasses, chubby), he was in a panic, obviously, they know what I do online. He said to ........"have you still got any (didn't catch what)" and .......said "Yeah", silver said "Get rid of it,by tonight", and ......said "I thought she wasn't doing it anymore", missed what silver said to that then he said "I want to know the minute she logs onto that computer, don't take your eyes off it". Then he sped off...............Then in the evening, around 6/7pm I looked out of our window and saw a woman in the house on the corner pointing what looked like a red laser light at our house. She had two young kids running around her, a ute, like silver's, pulled up, the woman (loud bogan voice) said "she didn't seem to be there alot a the time, so I didn't get much, sorry mate." Then the ute sped off.
Next morning, male voice next door say "she's just too much trouble..." which sounds ominous.....
31.10.16.......not sure anymore whether they're really trying to fry my brain or if it's one of their mind games......they have led me to believe that they are pointing some sort of laser at me, psycho bitch said last night to a guy, "you've got to get it at the same spot." he said "I know, go inside."......I got my husband to put up an aluminium blind, he thinks it's for the light, hopefully if they are doing anything along those lines it'll be enough to stop it.........got to give them points for trying a variety of things.........I was thinking about what one of them said the other day when ........asked him if he thought I would stop trying to prove what they have done and are doing, he said "No" "why?" "Because we have taken everything from her".
01.11.16.............Sorry to say I played right into their hands today. Went to get some pamphlets from the letter box and saw ..........sitting at the window, should have known it was a set up, she never sits there and she was wearing a particularly nice silk night gown..........
20.03.16 ...most recently when I went to the Library, I think it was last Friday, there was one of them sitting in the foyer on his phone, I stopped halfway up the stairs and listened a bit, he said something about "not hanging around because it looked suspicious". The same young man (recently shaved bald head wearing glasses) followed me to the supermarket. There was no doubt that he was looking for me because when he saw me he kind of almost stepped back obviously surprised that I'd spotted him.
06.04.16.......Had a thought, ..............a counsellor for .................employees, she was bullied by them into letting them monitor our last session, she was nearly in tears, they must have threatened her. There was a woman there that day, sitting in the waiting room, strangely she had her back turned to me and was facing a wall, hunched over, like she didn't want to be seen. I got up and got a magazine trying to get a look at her but gave up and sat down again. Then she got up and as she went out the door, which I was right next to, I got a good look at her, she saw me looking and bent down and gave me what can only be described as 'an evil' smile. Funnily I noticed that she had slightly crooked front teeth, like mine. She met up with (yet another) bald man in the hallway, he was older than the one in the library, tall, solid, could be anything between 30 to 40. Think he was masquerading as a bus driver where I worked. The woman was caucasian, long black hair, about my age or slightly younger, slim, about my height.,
Also yesterday, four of them in a blue 4wd wearing baseball caps and sunglasses, I almost laughed out loud they were so obvious. Alerted to my presence at the supermarket but one of the lookouts , they use young blokes, who phone when I arrive. (Ditto on the obvious).
18.04.16 ......next door, driver of black hatchback and driver of red hatchback, they commented on my wearing my sunhat all the time and 'black' driver said "so you can't see her face", red driver said "you wouldn't want to would you?" I'm sure they're both extremely good looking.
22.04.16.........last time he visited, they got their roof sealed and painted and new guttering.
02.05.16........ they all know that I have their regos and they know why - so that their identities can be found out by the police (hopefully the non corrupt ones). Don't know if that is going to be enough deterrent to stop them doing me physical harm, I can only hope.
03.05.16....As I was leaving to go shopping today I noticed a young man on the corner,seemed to be watching me (another lookout), when he saw me he entered something into his phone. As I drove past him he mouthed what looked like "your house is bugged", he mouthed it twice, I was pretty sure that's what he said, but I got up the road and did a uee, was going to ask him what he said. He was being picked up by an older man in a white hatchback. They sped off, I got a good look at the driver, dark skinned, glasses, chubby, anywhere from 50's onwards. The young bloke looked beseechingly at me through the passenger window, once again, what could I do? Hope he's alright.
09.05.16.......it,s been going on for years.....
16.05.16.......I said (to rental) "whatever it is you need to get over it, or you'll end up in prison" and a female voice said "you see, she knows".....
18.05.16......made me realise I cannot win against these people. I'm in a catch 22. if I tell anyone what's going on they'll either think I'm delusional or just not believe me. So because I can't tell anyone, they can and do carry on with impunity......
23.05.16..Yesterday there was a gathering.....On Friday i noticed they sometimes use a courier van to 'change shifts'. The van pulls up,usually afternoon, the guy, wearing obligatory baseball cap and sunglasses, comes out of .......and one goes in. The one coming out said "I've never watched someone so boring who does the same things on the same days. " WELL DONT WATCH ME THEN!
25.05.16........Haven't seen the courier van again. they probs know I spotted them.I heard one of the 'haters' on rental side say he was interested in my body because I seem to be able to just keep going even when I'm ill or injured. It sounded like he couldn't wait to do an autopsy - it freaked me out. I thought why don't you just ask me if you want to know anything about me? I do feel pain, I feel psychological torture as well, but I just carry on, what else can I do?
01.06.16....as I was taking .....to the train station, the tall thin blond woman with very short spikey hair, came from the opposite direction in (once again the obligatory) 4wd, she nearly ran off the road looking at me. She was with the tall grey haired man at Central station once when I had been into town to get my hair done and eyebrows tinted (never again), on the travellator down to the platform they were behind me, she said "I nearly didn't recognise her with eyebrows". I turned to them and said "who are you people?" they just smiled and turned their backs on me. i called them stalkers and walked off. What could I do? Security watched me after that, probably because I started crying and they thought I might jump in front of a train........
19.08.16.......They broke into our house today, they must have a key. I tried recording them on my phone but the radio is on and they are whispering, if only there was a way to isolate the whispering and enhance it, there would be my proof. Apparently technology not up to that yet......
09.16........silver 4wd arrived at ...... this morning, driver, caucasian, bald (what else?) chubby, dark rimmed glasses, in his 50's maybe older, was talking to someone on a radio (CB? cop?). He spoke to two different people, a woman who said something about ".....they can look after themselves this weekend". Then spoke to a man , driver said "I'm thinking of coming up this weekend" and "I've got some money for you'. Other guy said something about "..... two kids, one of them is quite pretty, one of them has got tatoos."
Don't know who to tell about this as I don't know who is in on it. These people have the use of an ambulance, it enables them to get anywhere fast without being stopped by the cops. It's the sort of thing spy organisations do...... (baldy, of course, driving, and young female, caucasian, long black hair, thin, mid to late 20,s?)
........it's on the tape. In fact if it could be enhanced you would hear that when they broke into my home they took my DNA, they messed with our TV you can hear one guy say "it's not only Samsungs", you would hear how some guy has known me since I was a teenager, how some "anonymous donor" is financing it all, you would hear some chick comment that this house "is bigger, no better than the one we had in ............."You would hear another woman say (presumably about our dog which we got from the RSPCA) "I was meant to socialise her, but I didn't do a very good job", you would hear the sound of a drill, you would hear laughter and an excalamation of "this is awesome" (hopefully about my artwork), you would hear something about 'money in a drawer, mumble mumble, drug money...." (I kept money in a locked drawer, it was money I earned driving buses, i withdrew it when I lost my job, it's for furniture).
02.10.16......today they sent some sort of foul smelling gas drifting over, I heard them say "she can smell it..." i closed the window and put on the fan....
07.10.16......male voice next door said "I will cut her head off alright", and female said to another older female, "I'm sorry it's the regos, i should have thought of that....." older female says it's ok. i gather they intercepted the letter I tried to post to the AFP.
20.10.16.....I was going to stop keeping record, but when they enter my home at night, when I am half asleep, can't wake up properly, and my dog doesn't bark, it means she knows them......
28.10.16........I'd been looking up how to find hidden cameras and forensic audio online when the silver 4wd, owner pulled up (to jog your memory, bald, older, glasses, chubby), he was in a panic, obviously, they know what I do online. He said to ........"have you still got any (didn't catch what)" and .......said "Yeah", silver said "Get rid of it,by tonight", and ......said "I thought she wasn't doing it anymore", missed what silver said to that then he said "I want to know the minute she logs onto that computer, don't take your eyes off it". Then he sped off...............Then in the evening, around 6/7pm I looked out of our window and saw a woman in the house on the corner pointing what looked like a red laser light at our house. She had two young kids running around her, a ute, like silver's, pulled up, the woman (loud bogan voice) said "she didn't seem to be there alot a the time, so I didn't get much, sorry mate." Then the ute sped off.
Next morning, male voice next door say "she's just too much trouble..." which sounds ominous.....
31.10.16.......not sure anymore whether they're really trying to fry my brain or if it's one of their mind games......they have led me to believe that they are pointing some sort of laser at me, psycho bitch said last night to a guy, "you've got to get it at the same spot." he said "I know, go inside."......I got my husband to put up an aluminium blind, he thinks it's for the light, hopefully if they are doing anything along those lines it'll be enough to stop it.........got to give them points for trying a variety of things.........I was thinking about what one of them said the other day when ........asked him if he thought I would stop trying to prove what they have done and are doing, he said "No" "why?" "Because we have taken everything from her".
01.11.16.............Sorry to say I played right into their hands today. Went to get some pamphlets from the letter box and saw ..........sitting at the window, should have known it was a set up, she never sits there and she was wearing a particularly nice silk night gown..........
Saturday, 27 May 2017
29.04.17 Nearly half the year gone and still it goes on, another year, that makes 11 apparently that we've been here, 11 years of gangstalking. I wonder if it's a record. Anyway, more complete record of everything in my documents. Now there is macca and brett in play. More names, more places, more threats, it does seem it will never end. Rolled up carpets/mats being exchanged between cars, mysterious men in 4 wds saying "ok boys she's scared enough", mysterious black vans with window tints so dark I thought it was illegal in Queensland, speeding away so as not to be seen. Being called 'evil' because i persist in trying to 'out' them. Reasoning, is a foreign concept to them, I am tired of being gangstalked, they will not stop, I will not stop. I know one day they will stop me. i am resigned to that fact, but by Christ they will be caught.
Monday, 1 May 2017
2.5.17 I tried to contact 4 corners a few days ago, but one of the guys involved in my gangstalking told the neighbours "I will try to convince them it's all in her head.' I suppose he would be successful. I have worked out that one of them involved is a past employee of channel 7 who now works at the ABC. Also as mentioned before corrupt cops. One of them picked up something from the neighbours letterbox at 8am this morning, a small package, if he's undercover why does he need to use their letterbox as a pickup? Yesterday i found some more holes in my daughter's room, one in the ceiling a few in the walls. I don't know if I've mentioned the holes before, I found them in certain rooms of the house. Some in the lounge,dining, hall and two of the bedrooms. They look like tiny drill holes, they are either in straight lines or in groups of three, if they are borer, they are very symetrical little drillers. I have taken photos of them. I have filled them . There was also one outside our front door. I know they are trying to set me up. The neighbours have been playing the long game with the help of the others, complaining to the police, making things up. The first time they went to the cops was after I yelled at the woman from next door after she followed me to the local shopping centre, she pulled in right behind me and I lost it and yelled at her to tell her husband to leave me alone and to tell his friends to leave me alone. She went to the police and complained that I damaged her car, which I didn't. The second time they went to the police to complain that I had photographed their son's car, only thing is, it wasn't his car, it belonged to one of the organisers of this stalking. The third time was after the event I mentioned in a previous blog, the "why are you trying to kill me" episode, they went to the police and said that they felt threatened, which is a joke as obviously I was the one feeling threatened, hence the question. So it's all about setting up a history so that I am further discredited. They are lucky I didn't go to the police when they yelled out that they were going to cut my head off. As my husband said it would be my word against theirs. I hope it works both ways. Maybe they want me to try to get my story out so they can say I'm deranged or something, who knows? I'd really like to know what 'agency' they belong to and why being embarrassed warrants so much hatred. I can understand certain people being pissed off over past events, however, it is a whole new level of scary when people in the media and police are involved.
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